So awhile back I began blogging with no real purpose in mind. The problem with writing, and with most things in life, is that if you aren’t inspired or aren’t interested enough in what you are writing about, it gets dull. It feels like a chore to write down thoughts each day when you have nothing you are truly passionate to write about.
The past few months have been a time of change, happiness, and struggle for me. But with all of that, I found a passion. I found an interest in things to write about, things that I feel strongly about and things that really resonate with me.
For those I have yet to meet, let me introduce myself. My name is Megan. I am a twenty six year old ever learning child, I am a full time high school art teacher, and I am someone who has battled mental health issues throughout my life. Going through changes that most people deal with at much age: What should I do with my life? Where should I live? Should I screw everything and travel? How do I adult? All the while, battling and struggling with anxiety.
The past few months, I have been really focusing on mindfulness and recreating myself, building myself into the person I truly want to be. Someone I can be confident about, proud of, and happy to be. But I’ve had some really tough times.
One of my favorite bands, The Avett Brothers, really helped me get through some of my tough times. One song in particular, truly resonated with me.
So I came back into the world of blogging with true intentions and new ideas, to discuss things that I am passionate about. How I am working on becoming a better me, being mindful of where I am at, being a work in progress, a work of art, and being okay with it.
But this song is the one that really got me.
“Make me sanguine
Help me genuinely
Kill the doubt that strangles myself worth
Paint the picture that I swore I heard”